幸运笔

张祖平

“Mommy， I got something for you！” Cody ran through the door after school. His face wore a big smile. He waved something in his hand. “Its a pen， but not just like any pen. Its a lucky pen！” He handed me the pen proudly， waiting for my reaction1.

I looked at the pen in my hand. There was nothing special about it. It looked just like any other pen in my drawer. At that moment， I didnt realize how special it was or how much I would treasure it.

I had made the decision to be a writer， but I was afraid of being refused by the publishers again and again. The night before， I told my husband my fear when I thought Cody wasnt listening.“What if nobody likes my writing and I fail？” But Cody did hear what I said. Now he stood in front of me， “You dont have to be afraid now，” he said， “This pen will make your stories great and everyone will love you.”

Tears filled my eyes， even if I havent sold the first book. I had everything I could ever need. And I felt lucky already， just by having Cody in my life， especially when I heard what he did to get it. At lunch， Cody heard an older boy talking about having a lucky pen. He decided to get it for me. The boy wouldnt agree but Cody didnt give up. In the end， he traded his favorite transformer2 toy and a box of crayons3——his most important things for that pen， just to make me feel better.

I still have that pen， though its long out of ink. When a refusal4 letter arrives and I start feeling sorry， I look at it and feel how lucky I am. So I value that pen. Its Cody who I really treasure in my life.

“妈妈，我有样东西给你！”科迪放学后跑进门，他满脸笑容，挥动着手中的东西，“是一支钢笔，但这不像别的笔，它是一支幸运笔。”他自豪地把钢笔递给我，看看我作何反应。

我看着手中的钢笔，没什么特别，就像我抽屉里任何一支钢笔一样。那时，我没有意识到这支钢笔有多么特殊，也没有意识到我将多么珍惜它。

我决心要成为一个作家，但是我害怕被出版社一次又一次拒绝。前天晚上，我告诉丈夫我的害怕，那时，我以为科迪没有在听。“如果没有人喜欢我写的东西，如果我失败了，那该怎么办？”但是科迪听见了我说的话。现在他站在我面前，“你不用再害怕。”他说，“这支笔会让你的故事变得精彩，每个人都会喜欢你。”

我热泪盈眶，尽管我第一本书都还没有卖出去，我却拥有了可以拥有的一切，我已经感到幸运，仅仅因为在我的生命里有了科迪，尤其当我听到他如何得到这支幸运笔。午饭的时候，科迪听见一个比他大的男孩在谈论他有一支幸运笔，科迪决定为我得到这支笔。那个大男孩开始不同意，但是科迪没有放弃。最后，科迪用他心爱的变形金刚玩具和一盒蜡笔——他最重要的东西换来了那只钢笔，只是为了我能感觉好点。

我现在留着那只钢笔，尽管它早已没有墨水。当我收到一封退稿信，顿觉得遗憾的时候，看一看那只钢笔，我觉得自己很幸运，所以我珍惜那只笔。其实在我生命中，我真正珍惜的是科迪。

Notes：

1. reaction [] n. 反应

2. transformer [] n. 变压器；（玩具）变形金刚

3. crayon [] n. 蜡笔

4. refusal [] n. 拒绝