我是怎么挨过和朋友疏远的那段日子的

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我是怎么挨过和朋友疏远的那段日子的

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They said true friends will never leave you. But I wonder why me and my "true friends" are now apart？ I've been in this group of friends for four years. But just when I thought we have a strong bond①bond 英 ［bɒnd］ 美 ［bɑnd］ n. 债券；结合；约定；黏合剂；纽带vi. 结合，团结在一起vt. 使结合；以……作保， everything went down. Once they make you feel like they will not be completed without you， next thing you know you are no longer belong. I don't really have an idea why they drift②drift英 ［drɪft］ 美 ［drɪft］ n. 漂流，漂移；趋势；漂流物vi. 漂流，漂移；漂泊vt. 使……漂流；使……受风吹积away. I feel rejected in a way that when I try to talk to them they turn their backs.

I feel betrayed in a way that I trusted them in every single thing， in every single secret that I have then in a snap③snap 英 ［snæp］ 美 ［snæp］ vt. 突然折断，拉断；猛咬；啪地关上vi. 咬；厉声说；啪嗒一声关上n. 猛咬；噼啪声；突然折断adj. 突然的gossip blows out. I feel depression and loneliness. The people I trusted the most are now the one who's putting me in shame. There comes a time that I skip meals and don't drink anything. I got sick and been confined④confined 英 ［kən'faɪnd］ 美 ［kən'faɪnd］ adj. 狭窄的；幽禁的；有限制的；在分娩中的 v. 限制（confine的过去式和过去分词）， but didn't hear a thing from them.

But how did I get away with it？ I felt so much pain throughout this journey. I felt exhausted and about to give up. I gave up the relationship. I shift my attention to myself； I read more books，talked with my heart by writing dairy. And slowly I recovered with all of the pain and depression. Now that I'm over with all the things they brought me，they started to communicate⑤communicate 英 ［kə'mjuːnɪkeɪt］ 美 ［kə'mjunɪket］ vi. 通讯，传达；相通；交流；感染vt. 传达；感染；显露with me. I know I'll meet more people in the future. But for now，I'll just focus on loving my self more than them. People come and go. There are other things worth our tears and pain. Maybe you're struggling with a big thing right now but always remember your heart is always there to guide us. Nothing is bigger than it！ Trust yourself and have faith.

We are all great individual⑥individual 英 ［ɪndɪ'vɪdjʊ（ə）l］ 美 ［，ɪndɪ'vɪdʒuəl］ adj. 个人的；个别的；独特的n. 个人，个体. Don't lose hope no matter how hard the situation is. Life is beautiful live it the way it's supposed⑦suppose 英 ［sə'pəʊz］ 美 ［sə'poz］ vt. 假设；认为；让（虚拟语气）；推想vi. 猜想；料想conj. 假使……结果会怎样to be.

人们常说真正的朋友永远不会离你而去。但为什么我的“挚友”要和我疏远？我们已经做了4年的朋友了。恰恰在我觉得关系已经密不可分的时候，一切却变得不如以往。以前她们给你这种感觉——没有你，她们的世界就不完整，而当下你会觉得自己是局外人。我当时真的不明白她们为什么会远离我，我试着和她们讲话，但她们会故意转过身去。

我觉得自己被背叛了，我毫无保留地和她们分享，现在这些小秘密却被当成八卦来散布。我感到无助和孤独，我曾信任的人使我陷入羞耻当中。有一段时间我连饭都吃不下。不与人接触，也没有那些“朋友”的消息。

我是怎么捱挨过这段时间的呢？ 这段时间，我觉得痛苦万分，筋疲力尽，想要放弃。最后，我放弃了这段关系。我看了很多书，写日记、来和自己的内心交谈。慢慢地，我从那些痛苦和失望里挣脱了出来。我挨过了那段日子，不再为她们的所作所为感到难过，而这时，她们反过来想要和我交流。我知道在以后我会遇到更多的人。但是现在，我更关注我自己的内心。也许还有很多别的事情，让你和我一样感到痛苦，但请你记住，心是我们的指引。相信自己，你就不会惧怕痛苦。

每个人都是值得骄傲的个体，不管境况多艰难，都不要失去希望，生活还是会一如既往地美好下去。

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