陌生的自己

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陌生的自己

文/Nyx_X 译/小J绘/马豆子

She slid①slid 英 ［slɪd］ 美 ［slɪd］ v. 滑；滑落；不知不觉地陷入（slide的过去分词）the tape into the VCR and watched as the screen came alive. On it were two familiar people that she knew， but yet，they seemed like strangers all the same. But if she thought about that day hard enough， she knew who they were. It was her and Matt； him happy and alive， her joyful and glad.

But the accident changed everything. She could no longer go on stage with him by her side and stare②stare 英 ［steə］ 美 ［stɛr］ vi. 凝视，盯着看；显眼vt. 凝视，盯着看 n. 凝视；注视into his eyes and slowly feel her panic③panic 英 ［'pænɪk］ 美 ［'pænɪk］ n. 恐慌，惊慌；大恐慌 adj. 恐慌的；没有理由的 vt. 使恐慌 vi. 十分惊慌fall away， she couldn't even sing in her room with no one looking. And she knew it was because without him there was no music， just a scared girl falling apart day by day.

On the screen the two strangers were singing，watching only each other，but still staying at a perfect pitch④pitch 英 ［pɪtʃ］ 美 ［pɪtʃ］ vi. 倾斜；投掷；搭帐篷；坠落 vt. 投；掷；定位于；用沥青涂；扎营；向前倾跌n. 沥青；音高；程度；树脂；倾斜；投掷；球场. When it ended he pulled⑤pull 英 ［pʊl］ 美 ［pʊl］ vt. 拉；拔；拖vi. 拉，拖；拔n. 拉，拉绳；拉力，牵引力；拖her into a hug and then they turned， bowed，and walked off stage. The screen went black and she started to cry， because that's how she felt now: empty and black. The person on the screen was a stranger， and yet it was her. And Matt was gone. She might have been that person before， but now she was far from her old self. Sometimes， time can't heal⑥heal 英 ［hiːl］ 美 ［hil］ vt. 治愈，痊愈；和解vi. 痊愈old wounds⑦wound 英 ［wuːnd］ 美 ［wund］ n. 创伤，伤口vt. 使受伤vi. 受伤，伤害.

她把录像带放进录像机，看着屏幕开始播放。屏幕上是她熟悉的两个人，但他们看起来十分陌生。不过若她仔细地回想，便能知道他们是谁。那是她和Matt；快乐鲜活的他和开心愉悦的她。

但那场事故改变了一切。她再也不能和他并肩站在舞台上，看着他的眼睛，感觉自己的恐惧渐渐消散，她甚至不能再在房间里独自唱歌。她知道那是因为没有他就没有音乐，只有一个胆小的女孩在一天天崩溃。

屏幕上的两个陌生人在唱歌，他们注视着彼此，但仍维持着完美的音调。曲终，他拥抱了她，他们转身，鞠躬，走下舞台。屏幕暗下来，她开始哭泣，因为那正是她现在的感觉：空虚和黑暗。屏幕上是一个陌生人，但确是她自己。Matt已经走了。也许她曾经是那个人，但现在她离从前的自己越来越远。有时，时间不能治愈旧的伤痕。

A Stranger to Myself